I sit and talk to god
And he just laughs at my plans,
My head speaks a language,
I don't understand.

I don't wanna die,
But I ain't keen on living either.
Before I fall in love,
I'm preparing to leave her.

I scare myself to death,
That's why I keep on running.
Before I've arrived,
I can see myself coming.

I just wanna feel real love,
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul,
You can see it in my face, it's a real big place.